I had an essay accepted for publication yesterday and I savored the feeling of happiness. I savored the rush of feeling accepted.
Can I bottle that feeling and uncork it when I’m feeling low?
I tried to really experience the happiness in my whole body; I recorded the sensations of lightness, bounciness and accomplishment.
I think sometimes that is why I feel so driven, so in need of producing art or doing good in the world—I long for that rush of adrenaline, that shot of happy, that I seem to experience when I feel accomplished and worthy.
I guess it is that sensation of being seen, being recognized and appreciated for being me. That is where my happiness comes from.
Now I need to learn to be able to give myself that feeling. I want to be able to produce happiness through recognizing myself.