Lots of stuff stirring in my mind.
Maybe I question myself too much about my motives.
When I was talking to my husband
about making silly Vine videos, I said that I want to make people laugh.
He said, innocently, “No, you want
I was all like—what? No! I mean,
yes, I like it if people like my videos, just like I like it if people like my
writing, but it’s not just for attention.
“If it was just for attention, I
could just take out my tits!”
Yes, I said that. I know—hilarious.
The only attention I’d get for
going topless now would be a police officer giving me a ticket for indecent
His comment got me a bit riled up.
I mean, as a performer or writer, yes, of course, we want people to pay
attention. And there’s nothing wrong with that.
But why do I judge myself then? Or
why do I allow other people who don’t like, or get, what I do to bother me?
And what is my overall mission
There I go again! Wanting to know
my every motivation.
Can it just be enough to know that
I want to perform and write?
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