Today I just need to get my energy moving. I need to be
proactive and ignore the voices in my head. I need to do what I know to be good
for myself, whether I want to or not.
I cannot focus in on what I feel or don’t feel. I cannot let
the deadened me win.
I need to act as if:
as if I know who I am, as if I matter, as if life holds meaning, as if I am
capable of loving and being loved.
I need to keep returning to this thought today: This is not
a permanent state of being.
Just because I cannot access the joy right now does not mean
I will never be able to feel it.
I will not deny what is going on for me right now, but I will
not give in to it either.
I am capable of joy. If I close my eyes and focus on my
heart, I can feel it. The love is still there. I am still there.
I will remind myself to close my eyes at every given
possible moment today and tell myself I
am.
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