one wanted to dance today. Not even me. My energy is absolutely zero; it might
have something to do with the four kittens bouncing on my head all night.
noticed the way I’ve been dealing with my depression this round has been by
eating a lot. My jeans are feeling tight and, come to think of it, that might
have something to do with my lack of energy, too.
been offering myself all kinds of excuses of why I’m eating whatever I want but
it all boils down to—it’ll make me feel
betterand I want to feel better.
would say I’m going on a diet, but that’s dangerous for me. The other way I deal
with my depression is by eating too little. Cutting out meals. Denying myself
to an extreme. With my history with disordered eating, I need to work on
developing a healthy relationship to food.
know I should cut out the sugary treats, but I hesitate to do it because they
bring me such comfort. Maybe I’ll have to just start by limiting the junk. But
can I do it? Even just talking about limiting brings up anxiety like, if I don’t
have food to turn to, what might I turn to instead?