Tuesday, August 04, 2009
This is where I want to be.
This is my mantra.
I sat beside Cole as he fell asleep in his crib dressed in his soft monkey onesie. He tossed and cried. He paused as I rubbed his back, his legs.
I held my hand against his lower back.
I wanted to be somewhere else. At my computer. Some me time.
This is where I want to be, I said.
I will be at my computer later. When Cole is asleep. Right now, this is important. Helping Cole learn to fall asleep. It takes patience. And I have that patience to give him, to teach him.
This is where I want to be. This is my job as a mother. To be here while he learns to sleep.
To be here. To give.