Along with the theme of wanting to
shake it, I danced to Taylor Swift’s Shake
It Off today.
It’s a new year and I want to
shake off my depression, frustration and general blahs. There’s a lot of emotional
stuff going on for me right now. I have been feeling myself sinking into a kind
of quiet, brooding depression punctuated by crazy anger bursts.
When I get really low, it’s hard
to believe I’ll ever feel better, ever be NOT depressed.
I have to grasp at any brief
moments of fresh air and when I feel them, saturate my entire self with the
good vibes.
I was thinking I don’t believe in
New Year’s resolutions, whatever that means, but I think I need to jump on this
band wagon.
Nothing complicated. Nothing
elaborate.
I want to keep doing yoga and keep
dancing as often as I can without those activities becoming weighed down with
the burden of keeping me undepressed.
I want to every day pause in the
morning, if only for five minutes, and fill myself with positive thoughts. Even
if I’m in a depression, I want to be required to spend five measly minutes
reflecting on the positive and feeling an attitude of gratitude.
There you go.
