I know when I get overwhelmed with being a mother I sometimes feel like ending it all. My depression can bubble up and rage through me. I can feel like driving away and never coming back.
It can be a very scary feeling of being out of control. Fortunately for me, I have a supportive husband and other support systems in place. I know if I ever feel really crazed that there are people to turn to for help.
Unfortunately, for this mother, she was not able to find a way through her torment.
I don't know anything else besides what is in this article on MSNBC. There was a domestic dispute. Then she drove her car with her four children away, letting out the ten-year-old on the way to the river. He then ran to the fire station and alerted them to what their mother was doing.
What makes this story hit me even harder is that her three children that died were all right about the same ages as my children.
To think of their final moments is to imagine my own three children in a situation like that. I cry just imagining this.
I don't say this often, but my thoughts and prayers go out to this family, their friends, the whole town. Our whole world.
No one should ever have to feel so hopeless.
And before all the voices of, "Oh, what a horrible mother! How could she?!" start exploding--I'd just like to ask that we stop and imagine how deeply disturbed this poor woman must have been to have been able to commit this act.
My heart goes out to them all. May they rest in peace.
Sad that this mother couldn't or didn't know where to find help for her depression. My heartfelt prayers for her surviving family.
ReplyDeleteI'd love to think this was an avoidable tragedy, but who knows what was going through her mind at that very moment. My heart did curdle as I read the story, I couldn't help but wonder "how could she"?
ReplyDeleteI read that the boy who escaped said the mother tried to reverse the car to get out, but was unable.
ReplyDeleteSo sad.